nerdherdchuck | TM #200 - Smörgåsbord!: Quote prompt (Application)

[Private Entry]

Not everybody deserves love all the time.

I know but...

I mean...I know Sarah is just...she's just posing as my girlfriend. And I have to pretend that we're going out and there's...a relationship there. But there's not. I mean...once they figure out how to...if they ever figure it out...I mean....

I know someday the mission will be over and I know that Sarah will be off to...well, wherever needs her. But part of me wishes...well, that maybe this was a real relationship?

It sounds crazy. I mean look at her and then...at me. Right. Dream on.

I doubt Corinna was telling the truth about the whole 'she doesn't know she wants yet me' thing. Right. After all the lies...what was one more, right?

I'm now sorta dating...in a pretend way...the former girlfriend of the guy, Bryce Larkin, yeah that guy that got me kicked out of Stanford for something I didn't do? That guy who sent me an e-mail that now has my brain filled with government secrets that just flash before my eyes when something triggers it?

But you know...I don't think me wanting to be with Sarah is just revenge. I kinda like her. And I know that unless I was in some alternate reality like in those sci-fi stories I read, that she really doesn't feel the same way about me that I feel about her.

She doesn't hate me...it's just...she doesn't think of me in 'that way.'

I'd be dreaming if I thought otherwise.

Muse: Chuck Bartowski
Fandom: Chuck
Word count: 241