TM #256 - What do you hope for?

[nerdherdchuck]

[Locked to those who know of his secret life]

Lately, one thing I said I hoped for is a normal life. I know it's not going to happen for awhile. Not while I'm still the Intersect anyway.

But I guess though there's a part of me that kinda enjoys part of the spy life though. I mean...getting to be (or at least being thought of as) CIA agent Charles Carmichael can be pretty cool. I mean, to be thought of as some total badass hero when I'm really just...well, geeky Chuck...that's pretty neat.

So, I dunno. Maybe it's the fact I'm not really a spy but don't have a normal life either bothers me the most? Maybe I really don't like being stuck in the middle like this and what I'm really hoping for is to have my life one way or the other?

I dunno which one I'd prefer to have. There's...well, obvious pluses and minuses to both.

What if I become a full fledged spy and can never see Ellie or Morgan again? And, my life would be in constant danger. Though...honestly, it currently is now so, not much of a change on that front.

What if I get to live a normal life? Now that I finally have my degree (and thank you again, Sarah and Casey for whatever you did to help me get that!) I would have a better shot at a much better job.

But I know I'd never see Sarah or Casey again if that happened. And I wouldn't be a hero anymore. I'd just be...well, myself.

I could probably ramble endlessly on this. But...I won't. Safe to say I have no idea what type of life I want.

But I do hope, when I can finally make a decision of the type of life I want that I make the right decision.

Muse: Chuck Bartowski
Fandom: Chuck
Word Count: 310

Comments

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

It is a serious dilemna, yes?

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

*nods sadly* It is, yes.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

I am not certain how I would solve it. However, you know you can talk to me about it.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

*smiles* Thanks Hiro. And if there's anything bothering you, you can talk to me too.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

That is what friends are for.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

Indeed.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

(BTW, you're right. Jill is evil. And I think we figured out this twist a while back...)

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

(I know. :P NBC's site says she's a 'double spy' so I dunno quite what that means. I guess we'll have to wait and see.)

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

Usually a double spy would mean that she's working for Fulcrum, but actually working for someone else (on Chuck's side). Poor Chuck...

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

Right, right. The question is is if she's more on Fulcrum's side or more on the other side.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

True enough. Especially since she has Chuck in her greedy little clutches. This is going to break Chuck's heart. Here he thinks he's getting the real thing and he's getting another spy romance.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Though she didn't look like she was gloating at the end there. I would have thought right after she's revealed to be Fulcrum, Chuck turns away for a second and they zoom in on Jill who is smirking or something.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

No, she actually did look upset. However, actions speak louder than words. It's going to depend on what she does when she goes to deliver Chuck to Fulcrum.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

Definitely.