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nerdherdchuck) wrote2008-11-15 07:57 pm
nerdherdchuck) wrote2008-11-15 07:57 pm
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TM #256 - What do you hope for?
[Locked to those who know of his secret life]
Lately, one thing I said I hoped for is a normal life. I know it's not going to happen for awhile. Not while I'm still the Intersect anyway.
But I guess though there's a part of me that kinda enjoys part of the spy life though. I mean...getting to be (or at least being thought of as) CIA agent Charles Carmichael can be pretty cool. I mean, to be thought of as some total badass hero when I'm really just...well, geeky Chuck...that's pretty neat.
So, I dunno. Maybe it's the fact I'm not really a spy but don't have a normal life either bothers me the most? Maybe I really don't like being stuck in the middle like this and what I'm really hoping for is to have my life one way or the other?
I dunno which one I'd prefer to have. There's...well, obvious pluses and minuses to both.
What if I become a full fledged spy and can never see Ellie or Morgan again? And, my life would be in constant danger. Though...honestly, it currently is now so, not much of a change on that front.
What if I get to live a normal life? Now that I finally have my degree (and thank you again, Sarah and Casey for whatever you did to help me get that!) I would have a better shot at a much better job.
But I know I'd never see Sarah or Casey again if that happened. And I wouldn't be a hero anymore. I'd just be...well, myself.
I could probably ramble endlessly on this. But...I won't. Safe to say I have no idea what type of life I want.
But I do hope, when I can finally make a decision of the type of life I want that I make the right decision.
Muse: Chuck Bartowski
Fandom: Chuck
Word Count: 310
Lately, one thing I said I hoped for is a normal life. I know it's not going to happen for awhile. Not while I'm still the Intersect anyway.
But I guess though there's a part of me that kinda enjoys part of the spy life though. I mean...getting to be (or at least being thought of as) CIA agent Charles Carmichael can be pretty cool. I mean, to be thought of as some total badass hero when I'm really just...well, geeky Chuck...that's pretty neat.
So, I dunno. Maybe it's the fact I'm not really a spy but don't have a normal life either bothers me the most? Maybe I really don't like being stuck in the middle like this and what I'm really hoping for is to have my life one way or the other?
I dunno which one I'd prefer to have. There's...well, obvious pluses and minuses to both.
What if I become a full fledged spy and can never see Ellie or Morgan again? And, my life would be in constant danger. Though...honestly, it currently is now so, not much of a change on that front.
What if I get to live a normal life? Now that I finally have my degree (and thank you again, Sarah and Casey for whatever you did to help me get that!) I would have a better shot at a much better job.
But I know I'd never see Sarah or Casey again if that happened. And I wouldn't be a hero anymore. I'd just be...well, myself.
I could probably ramble endlessly on this. But...I won't. Safe to say I have no idea what type of life I want.
But I do hope, when I can finally make a decision of the type of life I want that I make the right decision.
Muse: Chuck Bartowski
Fandom: Chuck
Word Count: 310
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