TM #259 - "I don't understand"

[nerdherdchuck]

I don't understand why our father left us. It's been eleven years, but I still don't know why. Or why he stopped communicating with us. I mean...at least we'd hear from him on Christmas and our birthdays but...then...nothing.

It took me a long time to cope with that. To stop blaming myself.

At least I have a couple good memories of him. I mean, he did try to teach me to cook once. Granted, he really couldn't, but the fact he tried was nice. And the day he gave me his suit. Again, a nice gesture since I really didn't have anything like that that fit me then. I actually still have that suit too.

And despite all the fact he walked out on us, I still would like to see him again. Ellie said she hoped someday our father would walk her down the aisle on her wedding day. Well, now that she's engaged, I'm going to try to find him.

She had no special plans for her big day except for that. I'm going to try to make that dream come true for her.

I dunno how exactly. All I have is an old birthday card with a phone number scribbled in it that's been since disconnected. But the area code of the number is Las Vegas. Wonder if he's still in that area...

Muse: Chuck Bartowski
Fandom: Chuck
Word Count: 226

Comments

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

I wish we didn't have to lose our parents at all.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

Agreed. But there will be some time when our children will say the same.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

*nods sadly*

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

It is the reason that we need to appreciate the ones we love always. You never know when it will happen.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

Too true. *sighs*

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

At least you still have Ellie. And with her and Awesome getting married, you might have nieces and nephews soon.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

*perks up*

True, I still have her.

Well, I dunno about having nieces and/or nephews in the near future. Awesome's mom kinda brought that up and Ellie looked a bit embarrassed. She felt his mom was rushing things way too much.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

Do they want children? Perhaps not now, but in the future?

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

I never heard them discuss that too too much but they seem to in the future.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

They will have beautiful children. They will probably also be athletes if their father has any say.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

*grins* I wouldn't doubt it.

Though maybe one of them will be more like Ellie and like to cook and stuff more than want to be an athlete.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

That would be nice. Children should reflect something of both parents. Perhaps they will be athletes who can cook.

[nerdherdchuck.livejournal.com]

Perhaps so. *nods*