TM #259 - "I don't understand"

[nerdherdchuck]

I don't understand why our father left us. It's been eleven years, but I still don't know why. Or why he stopped communicating with us. I mean...at least we'd hear from him on Christmas and our birthdays but...then...nothing.

It took me a long time to cope with that. To stop blaming myself.

At least I have a couple good memories of him. I mean, he did try to teach me to cook once. Granted, he really couldn't, but the fact he tried was nice. And the day he gave me his suit. Again, a nice gesture since I really didn't have anything like that that fit me then. I actually still have that suit too.

And despite all the fact he walked out on us, I still would like to see him again. Ellie said she hoped someday our father would walk her down the aisle on her wedding day. Well, now that she's engaged, I'm going to try to find him.

She had no special plans for her big day except for that. I'm going to try to make that dream come true for her.

I dunno how exactly. All I have is an old birthday card with a phone number scribbled in it that's been since disconnected. But the area code of the number is Las Vegas. Wonder if he's still in that area...

Muse: Chuck Bartowski
Fandom: Chuck
Word Count: 226

Comments

[lieu-murphy.livejournal.com]

Chuck, if you want some help I could do some calling around for you...

[criminal-issues.livejournal.com]

I thought talking to my father about leaving my mom and I would help me understand but it only made me dislike him even more.

[gotbottle]

I'm so sorry about your dad, Chuck. I'm glad you were able to stop blaming yourself eventually. I hope you find him and I hope everything works out.

[powered-otaku.livejournal.com]

*Puts his hand on Chuck's shoulder.* I cannot understand why he would do that, either. Both you and Ellie are wonderful people. It is a mystery.