nerdherdchuck | (no subject)

It's like she just knows about me. Like reading a case file. She knows facts, but that's it.

But she doesn't really have feelings for me right now.

I cannot imagine how much that must hurt. Is she still herself or is she completely different?

She did allow me to kiss her though. Maybe...it'll help to get her to remember.

She's....well about the same as when I first met her, if that makes any sense.

That makes a lot of set. After all, you have changed each other. Without her memories of you, she's the Sarah you first met.

There is nothing else you can do? Perhaps if you take her to some of your special places she may remember?

Well, I've taken her to a couple. But maybe the more places we visit, the more she'll remember.

I gotta be careful about it though. If I keep insisting to take her places, she might not want to go, you know? And upsetting her might drive her away.

That sounds wise. Perhaps you should do some things you know she likes to do. Especially if it is something she liked to do before that perhaps she did not do so often after you met.

I'll have to think back to things she liked before we started going out.

I think she would know that you really understood her.

It's like she knows I should but doesn't fully believe it.

She used to be very suspeicious of you, yes?

She was, yeah. She didn't know if I was involved in the plot to steal the Intersect or anything like that right away.

Of course, now, she at least knows we're on the same side. She knows I'm an actual spy - something I wasn't when this whole thing started. So...that part is different.

At least now that you are a spy you understand her better. Unfortunately, in this kind of situation you have all the advantage. And she is probably aware of that. You now all about her, but you are a stranger to her.

[nods sadly] You're right, Hiro.

It is a hard thing to get around.

[gives another sad nod] It really is.

How much have you told her about the two of you?

She knows we are...were?...married. She knows of the Intersect and that she was originally sent to watch me because of it. But I didn't bring up the house she had hoped we'd someday both own.

A good idea. That way she will not feel pressured. Right now, that kind of thing is your enemy.

Right. And if I pressure her, I might drive her away.

Very true. She will need to re-discover who you are to her.

Right.

But part of me wishes it could be as easy as a fairy tale. Like what Morgan proposed after watching a bunch of Disney movies with Clara - one kiss and everything's okay.

Did you try it?

I did. She let me kiss her, but nothing changed yet.

That is not good. If nothing else, I would think that the body memory - that is what it is called, yes? - would have helped.

Body memory? You mean sensory memory?

Guess the fairy tale cure was a long shot anyways. [sighs]